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All right let's get to this before I fall in anymore of those TRAPS yall all are setting for me hehehehehehe.

My name is Benny and I am one bi-polar crazy son of a BUCK....

I have talked to Micah, and it seems he is going to allow me to hang around here some and see if my top blows off. I have known Mich since the beginning of this forum in talk and we all been a long ways together and sometimes not together. I appreciate him deciding maybe it's time.

Yall know I aint the kind to back off nuttin much and I aint gonna back off now because I dont need to. About 3 months ago I got diagnosed again as Bi-polar manic depressive with a hard slant to manic. That means Im pretty much catatonic around the clock and sub nuclear when stuff pizzes me off, which is at the drop of a hat. I'm sure you might remember one or two of my posts when experiencing one of these rages.
They come on strong and can last for weeks. They feel good too, you feel like you can tear down a tree. But they do a lot of damage too, mostly to your relationships and then to your life in leu of that.

I have screwed up oppourtunities to be in conservation that I truly wish I hadnt done. I screwed up a lot more, but those chances and where they would have gone were where I needed to go. I shut my own doors.

And I done pizzed off just about everybody on the internet as well.
I aint changed much in what I think, the difference is that perhaps I can contain when and when not to say it. I had no control before and as it appeared in my mind, it came out on the keyboard.

I am taking lithium for this, which is a mineral. They dont know why it works for this, but it does, and it works well by my experience.
It has calmed me down tremendously and things have begun to change because of this. I did not realize what I was doing until I could calm down. I couldnt see it. But once calmed I cant belive some of the crap I did, in fact I cant believe most of my life to be honest with ya.

Bi-polar disorder will destroy your life because even the people that love you just about cant stand to be around you...

But anyway, I think I got a handle on this stuff, and there aint no better place to see if I can handle my temper, than around a bunch of spinner huggin amateurs like YOU boys...

I am sure that now every time I say something yall dont exactly like, you will remind me to take my meds,
and I want to go ahead and thank you ahead of time for lookin after me.

So there ya have it,
another example of Benny will put his balls on the table and grin at ya.....

Cant wait to hear the Bi-Polar jokes!

Benny, er a Jim, Take your meds ... Just joshing ya Sound as if youve been around the block Benny... wish you could explain this problem to my brother... he needs something for sure! Life is too short to live as a valcano... thats why I stopped being a drunk Yall have a nice day...Welcome back sir

Hello Benny!

Ok, I'll come clean too... Im actually benny. Dunno who this jim guy is.

You PAID a docotor to tell you your bi-polar and need meds? Shoot man, I did that 3 or 4 years ago. I don't go back to the spav days, but I do go back to hoozier jim times, and you where defiently whacked all the way back then. Eric from dhbp asked about you last week, oddly enough. You ought to drop in and see THAT crew. hehe.

Always liked your writings best when the HE HE HE's where in there. Always assumed you where high when you wrote like that. Now, maybe I think you where simply in a bliss state.

Think its funny they want to ban you... for talking bout ethics. Seen yur booty banned bout 3 dozen different places, never for talking ethics... Too funny.

Bravo mich for keeping the old feller around for a while. Benny's like a snow storm, never when he'll show up or how much you'll get, but you know it aint gonna last! bwhahahahahaha. travis

no problem hear. hell half of my cousins are bi-polar, some even bi-sexual. it's a trip to go hunting with one dude when his medication is starting to wear off. starts rubbing mud on his face and talking crazy sheet. i just keep my eye on the gun and him on my quick draw side in case i have to protect myself . big s.o.b to 6'6" 275lbs.

be good and don't mix alcohol with that stuff, 'caused the law to lock him up and then he made the next day news. he put 3 of his cell monkeys in the hospital when he lost his mind behind locked doors.

Bipolar patients in the manic phase exhibit many of the signs and symptoms of pathological narcissism - hyperactivity, self-centeredness, lack of empathy, and control freakery.

During this recurring chapter of the disease, the patient is euphoric, has grandiose fantasies, spins unrealistic schemes, and has frequent rage attacks (is irritable) if her or his wishes and plans are (inevitably) frustrated.

Sounds like a true duck hunter to me.

Look forward to you sharing your beneficial knowledge about waterfowl habitat with us.

welcome back aboard.... if i can forgive you, then everyone should make a try..... after all, i can remind you that you come after my ass pretty hard... and i was hard headed enough to jump back in your $#!+.... i have no problem with you if you stay within the guidelines that Micah has set.... stay on your medicine and don't quit taking it because you can "handle it on your own". take care and enjoy....we will see how well you do, and i hope that it will work......

judge jb

You really cant tell that it's happening. You know you are going mighty fast, but it just seems like you are suppsed to. It also masks as being able to work your BUTT OFF. I have always been able to work other people down, I hope that aint going away entirely.

Jude I know you and me had some words, but I dont remember what they were as with most the crap I have said over time. I know I was pissed at you, but I got pissed at rain....

GC you and me done been a round and I still dont like what you did, but I now realize why you did it.

I dont know about the rest of ya, to hell with it, let's just start over and see how many people I can piss off..............

I wanna talk about some damn habitat.......

Once I learned to look beyond the insaneness (if that's a word) I always enjoyed the content of Benny's posts. However, you had to work at it to get to the bottom line.

I certainly saw some Benny-like simularities with Jim Walker; however, I honestly didn't think it was Benny. That $hit must work, and I am glad you are on it. Looking forward to having you back, especially in a (self) manageable form.

Ringbill

don't worry, i remember what you said and have it saved along with copies... a little attitude is OK.... just don't piss me off.....


judge jb

You really cant belive how different it is. I used to read stuff on here, and if I didnt like it, I mean I was goin to the LINE.......

Now I read the same thing, and it rolls right off.....

You just cannot believe how different I feel.

I know that nobody knows this, but I could not read a book, and I had not been able to for years. I could not read the paper. I just could not focus that long. I could read posts, but they are short and usually aimed at ME hehehehehe. But seriously, I could not read a book and it was killin me.

I have 9 books here on various aspects of learning to write and write well, and I have read three of them cover to cover so far. I could not have done that for all the tea in china 4 months ago. I was trapped.

I have been wanting to write my beaver book for about 5 years and I just could not keep it in the road to get there. I am so excited about this now, I have a mentor who is helping me to learn to write, and I am going to write this damn book finally. I just cannot tell you how much that means to me.

So things are changing, and I promise you that after all the damn suffering EYE have been through with this crap, you wont have to tell ME to take my meds, I gaurantee you. I NEVER want to go back to that again.

Welcome back Benny! Glad to hear that you are healthy and look forward to reading the posts. I agree that you can come in with guns balzing but I for one always appreciated your passion, although it could get a bit overboard at times. WELCOME BACK, looking forward to reading more of those posts.

Kelly

I hear writing a book can be quite therapeutic. Remember, like I said in my PM, I want that signed copy. You can sign it: JimWalker aka Benny.

Hell, we've been around the block already! You pissed me off so bad I had to sit back, relax and count backwards from 10. Only person I know that can piss me off that bad on a damn computer.

Yeah Im tore about stopping behavior and pizzin people off because hell thats why everybody knows me

And my wild booty behavior, I dont want to sink into the crowd, I like people givin me grief, its better than giving me nothing at all!!!!

On second thought I doubt I will become mother teresa......

Are you for real......